Chaotic Even After Kids are Asleep

My mind is a messy ball of yarn mixed with a blah mood, yet I still have hope.

You would think that now that the kids are asleep, I would be tackling the things on my to-do list. Nope! I'm sitting here on the couch feeling like a lost puppy.

I have so much I need to get done that when it's time to finally do it, I just can't think of a single thing I was supposed to do. Mind you, I usually have a list written down somewhere.

Earlier today, while I was with the kids, my mind was racing with so many thoughts — meal planning, updating my budget, preparing Zakai for daycare, purchasing his uniform and supplies... and the list goes on and on and on. It's a never ending list, and sometimes, I just want to pull my hair out. But I can't even do that because growing my hair to waist length is actually one of my goals.

Let's not forget that I washed my hair days ago and have yet to moisturize and style it. There just never seems to be enough time in the day to do it all.

God, I just need Your help. I need Your clear mind. I need my sanity. Please, take this overwhelm away. I'm honestly so sick of it.

Anyway, welcome to my first blog post. You will definitely see more rants from me—but I promise they will have purpose. I don't intend to spend my free time just complaining. I pray that God turns my moments of frustration into something meaningful, even if it's just a one-word lesson.

Right now, life is really hard—but deep down, I know I'm not going through this for nothing. After all, "He knows the plans He has for me, plans for good and not evil, to give me a future and a hope" (Jeremiah 29:11).

It's 1:30 a.m., and I am sooooo wide awake, but I'll keep this scripture in mind as I prep for bed.

If you've ever had moments like this, please share—I'd love to hear how you have dealt with it.

Until next time...